Sweet Aubrey,
Everywhere I look purple wildflowers are growing. Their pretty little blooms sway in the breeze and all I can think about is you. I remember the way you always twirled around, dancing and giggling with every step. Your natural beauty was so evident and burned a place in my soul that will never leave me. You were radiant...just perfect. Your light shined so bright that all the world could see. Even those who never met you, know you were special.
I look at all these pretty flowers that you loved so much (we call them "Aubrey flowers") and think I how magnificent the wildflower fields of Heaven must be. Do you dance with Jesus, surrounded by those purple blooms? Does Big Papa sing to you all?
I desperately want to be there, with you.
This life--while it's so good and I know I'm blessed to live it--is not full and I'm not whole without you. I force myself to believe that everyday completed is one closer to you but all my heart feels is that it's one more farther away from you. Time is a funny thing. While it flies, it also drags and pulls me further away from normalcy and the person I was when you were here with me. All I want is you. You are the beginning and ending thought of my everyday. I long for the day we are reunited. To hold you in my arms and live again is my dream. Until that dream is real and our eternity together begins, know that Mama is watching the purple flowers dance and longing for you. I love you, my precious girl. Soon.....
